sorry

been missing couple days, kinda hectic, back working, yeah !! still have my moments, my son still struggles at times as well. working trying to stay in the here and now and not get too anxious which i am prone to. just to give some people who have never had these struggles some of the hurdles i now have to deal with is when i sit down and look at what it takes to survive financially and what i make and spend, its a scary thought. i am grateful to have a job but i work at a place well know for hiring par-timers to avoid benefits and also they don't pay well either. when you figure child support, living expenses ect i barely  have 40-50 per month expendable income and i still need toiletries and a couple other incidentals. The scary part is that my dream is to be fully self supporting supporting with my own place, furniture, (even bills); but saving to reach that point is going to be difficult. i am extremely appreciative of the place i am at and the people, they are great but i think everyone thinks of someday having their own, don't feel it is unreasonable. its going to take work and help but want to get there and once there try to help someone else get there