today

not sure why i even signed onto blogg, i guess i just felt need or desire to  to speaking to anyone. as many know its been a rough couple days but i fell it starting to subside,  thanks in most part to a group of guys who seem to care, its amazing. so many other i have come across in past have had agendas, these don't.. anyway spent day reading, nothing especially heavy just trying to stay out of head and use coping skills, have a call in to my employer to make sure all is kool and had a long conversation with my kids being careful not to get to deep into how i fee land what i am going through, they hay enough on their plate just being teenagers and their mother bieng sick, it is important to let them e teenagers for as much as possible. anyway.  my appetite is returning which his good sign so maybe i will go make sandwich and green tea..just wanted to say hello out there and if anybodies hope is faltering please hang on until you come across some people to help you; peace.........