gratitude

My ex-wife passed away a few days ago, it is difficult for as much anger and resentment i felt towards her i still cared, she was the mother of my children. so i am dealing with that grief and even more difficult watching my children grieve for their mother. i bumped into an old friend and kinda layed down what i am going through and he suggested i focus some energy on things that i am grateful about.i decided on of the 1st thing was to write to foundation members who have been there for me but really goes out to any of you who have helped, everything from donating money to simply saying a prayer. what follows is a copy of that letter.

Omar, i have doing alot of thinking the last couple days. it has been a rough couple of days, watching your children in pain and not being able to really ease that pain is difficult. saw an old friend last night and had a good talk, he suggested i spend some time focusing on the things for which i am grateful and even making a list. i plan on doing that, maybe that will be my next blog entry. when i started thinking about things i am grateful for of course you and Ryan came to mind. i say this and do not say lightly but have no doubt i would not be alive had it not been for your intervention. like i have expressed several times recently i am not sure i am what you bargained for and am probably more high maintenance than you had expected but you have been supportive and gracious the whole time. there are in life certain situation where my vocabulary is inadequate to express my feelings or thoughts, this is one of those occasion. if you look back at your work here and need to find some sort of validation you can at least say you  have saved a life. i am grateful beyond words. i just wanted you to know that..    Phillip